overwhelming thought

It’s quite worrisome reading the news of what is currently happening in Indonesia. It is reported that a large number of uneducated and unskilled Chinese have been coming to Indonesia to fill in the job vacancy. Isn’t that weird? I mean there are still a lot of Indonesians with no job, but why the government ignores them? Or else, if the issue is truly to help immigrant, then would it be better for Indonesia to help the Syrian refugee or Rohingya?

It looks like there’s a big gap between the government/ the leader of the country and the people. 

Write a journal before the exam

I don't remember when was the first time I started to have a great interest in studying human brain. 

But for sure, physio-psyc had an influence on me. 

It's interesting to notice that when we're under pressure, we tend to perform less better than under normal circumstance. Taking exam for example. 

"I did read that chapter last night. But why can't I remember it?".

The brain Scientists try to help us find what is going in our brain during that time. So when we solve a problem (answering the exam question, having an interview, etc) there are some parts actively involved here. Frontal lobe (responsible for thinking process and proble solving) and amygdala (the limbic system which is responsible to regulate our emotion). 

So when we're underpressure, the limbic system can disturb the work of frontal lobe. We feel nervous and then forget about the topic we study before. 

The scientists then make an experiment. Two groups of high school student are about to take a biology exam. One group is given a journal for them to write down their feeling before taking the exam. Another group isn't. 

At the end of the study, the researchers find that students who write journal perform better than those who don't. Writing down our feeling before taking exam appearantly can reduce the anxiety. Blocking the limbic system interrupting the frontal lobe. Making the mind clear. 

It seems that sherlock holmes is way a head with his saying, "put away your emotion when working on the problem for it may unclear your mind". 

Walking down the mind

Currently, I feel like I'm walking on the different path from what I thought at first.
I'm not saying I'm not gratefull for what I'm now. It's probably just I'm longing of what I used to be. A student. With a bunch of books, mountain of articles, people to discuss with, lectures. Anything, just to keep my mind buzzing.
World is just so dull without them.

I'm just like any other people. Trying to survive in a strange place.

am I for a teacher or a student?

It's been a month since I join this school. I thought it was my passion to be a teacher. So I was eager to be one. Yet after all of this time, I then realize that I was wrong. 

The school is good. the teachers here are great, and I truly admire them and their work. the environment, the student, everything is just fine. It's fun to be here. really. 

Only that I'm not ready yet for this, I think. I don't think I'm good enough to be one, yet. I need to learn some more. 

Insensitivity?

It was started by an inquiry of the universe. The discussion then went on and on. It's getting interesting as people started to show up and jump into the circle.

But then the atmosphere just dropped dead only because of this one question: "what's the point of talking this old theory? Why do we bother? It's better to talk about other social issue around us. You know, poverty, poor neighborhood". 

Well..I know she only meant to be more focus on the real action rather than the never ending discussion on outer space, the milky way, the universe.

But then, it's a sort of insult upon critical thinking and a killer to the human curiosity.

I don't know. As teacher I believe it's her job to nurture students' curiousity, develop their critical thinking as well as the creativity. 

I feel sorry for her. 

Reading some news reporting about the Mentally retarded people in Indonesia, it's heart-wrenching. Especially for those with low economic background, below the poverty line. Then I'm wondering, for young children with such problem, do they have to have gloomy future? How is the possibility for them to succeed in their future? I mean to be independent on own self, even though perhaps not 100 %.


http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3512517/Village-damned-Hundreds-mentally-ill-patients-shackled-locked-away-Indonesian-village-condition-blamed-incest-malnutrition.html

Being a mom & working. What's the problem?

"Woman who spent her time most in the office with her work rather than with her kids, is she really a mother or a worker?"

This statement struck me. Posted by a husband. I don't know what you're thinking. But in my mind, it's more like judging.

So let me spill the bean out.

I know, being only a fulltime house wife is not as easy as others may think. I know that because I see my mom. She's really an amazing mom. It's hard already, with the never ending house chores more than the number of hour in a day.

And being a working mom, that's even harder. Because she has to take care two different places, house & working place, with all kind of stuff.

It's exhausting already when she return from the work place. But she can't take a rest yet. The house, the children are waiting. Cleaning the house, preparing the food, and other stuff comes, again, and again and again. Then only after a late mid night, she can take rest. Early morning comes, another day begins. and the same routine's starting again.

I'm not talking rubbish. I know that from my colleague in the office. Whom people call as working mother.

Woman may has various reason to be a working mom. Some people may think it's more to woman's own self-fullfilmen. You know, self development, self achievement. Well, yeah, that's true.

But for other woman, perhaps the reason isn't that at all. Have you ever heard or may be read newspaper, the story of a mom being single parent, who struggle for the life of her family? Because the absent of her husband (with, of course, various reasons as well).
Which sometimes cutting her not only with one job, but two or even more. She need to support her family on her own.

Or do you ever know another story? A fulltime housewife, who has husband to support the family. But then he died, suddenly (Yup, death can come anytime). The situation changes. Now the responsibility lies on her. She need to work.

It's hard. Indeed. It's a difficult decision as well for her, I assume, to be a working mom. But that's life. Everyone may encounter different problem and has different way to deal with that.

I'm sure most of mothers in this world want to spend most of her time watching the kids at home, doing the house chores. Including me as well.
But when the situation push us out of the comfort zone, let's be real.