am I for a teacher or a student?

It's been a month since I join this school. I thought it was my passion to be a teacher. So I was eager to be one. Yet after all of this time, I then realize that I was wrong. 

The school is good. the teachers here are great, and I truly admire them and their work. the environment, the student, everything is just fine. It's fun to be here. really. 

Only that I'm not ready yet for this, I think. I don't think I'm good enough to be one, yet. I need to learn some more. 

Insensitivity?

It was started by an inquiry of the universe. The discussion then went on and on. It's getting interesting as people started to show up and jump into the circle.

But then the atmosphere just dropped dead only because of this one question: "what's the point of talking this old theory? Why do we bother? It's better to talk about other social issue around us. You know, poverty, poor neighborhood". 

Well..I know she only meant to be more focus on the real action rather than the never ending discussion on outer space, the milky way, the universe.

But then, it's a sort of insult upon critical thinking and a killer to the human curiosity.

I don't know. As teacher I believe it's her job to nurture students' curiousity, develop their critical thinking as well as the creativity. 

I feel sorry for her. 

Reading some news reporting about the Mentally retarded people in Indonesia, it's heart-wrenching. Especially for those with low economic background, below the poverty line. Then I'm wondering, for young children with such problem, do they have to have gloomy future? How is the possibility for them to succeed in their future? I mean to be independent on own self, even though perhaps not 100 %.


http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3512517/Village-damned-Hundreds-mentally-ill-patients-shackled-locked-away-Indonesian-village-condition-blamed-incest-malnutrition.html